The Season

So I am thinking this is the season for change! So much has changed recently. The biggest one is that we have closed the store, which although it has been a change for everyone, has been poignantly profound for me. I guess thinking about where my life was headed and picturing myself in that role for years and now having that chapter slam shut is, well, hard to handle. Am I still the same person? Yes. And No. Does changing your goals or aspirations change who you are? Yes. And No. Does it mean I was wrong in making that goal? Yes? No? I don't know...I'm a little lost on all of this if you can't tell. Then I'm thinking does any of that matter?

Right now I know the following: I love my husband who has been a solid, supportive, sweetheart of a man to me through all of this. I adore my two boys who have had me laughing every day the last 4 years. I am rich in all of the support I have from my amazing mom, sister & dad. I still have a passion for Boxer Luv, and I thought maybe I had started to lose some of it. I have wonderful friends who will brave the chill and come cheer for me on a journey I didn't think I could do. I have learned that having a day of "nothing to do" is not only OKAY to have once in a while, but is necessary. I realized that deep in my heart I love having a cup of home brewed coffee in the morning--it just feels RIGHT. I recognized that I love to write and feel a longing for it when I haven't done it for a while. So I'm going to try to be better and do it more often.

Change....not such a bad thing, I guess.